i turn a year older in some 20 minutes or so...but that is besides the point. the point is...birthday surprises and celebrations apart, i am turning old...but does that mean i am growing also?am i getting matured as a person...is my outlook towards things changing??thinking of the past one year....if not anything else...it has been extremely taxing...losing some people very close to me...anil jethu..punno jethu and my mashi.i never realised i loved her so much until this may when i went her place and saw that life-size photo in her room..she was an epitome of liveliness for me.knowing all the ups and downs of her life and yet her zeal to smile and keep herself happy....her singing and chattering...et all....i wish i can live up to it mashi....
lerning so much about people...developing a devil-may-care attitude....truly, i feel the change now that i actually sit and contemplate.i klnow for sure that i am not bothered about people and their reactions anymore. and that is why i believe i am beginning to remain happy for longer periods of time...or so i believe!!!!
if not anything else, one thing for sure...i know what are my priorities..at least for the moment...and i know that it is important to think about yourself and yourself only most of the times.....
albeit there are people and quite a few of them i would always keep before me....
thank you all for making me what i am today....trust me...each one of you had a hand in it!!
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Friday, May 28, 2010
places n people
it is happening again...it should not. another internship ends and i leave this place tomorrow...carrying a baggage full of memories. interning at Kundalia has been the most learning experience so far.Amidst all the corrections, scoldings,expectations,accolades,advices,laughter et all....i have grown accustomed to this place. my desk,my work, my files...people here made a part of everything so easily.they accepted me with all my flaws..loved me..cared for me.
as i am on verge of leaving this place i feel what everyone here meant to me. in such a short span i have learnt so much from each of them....
the intimidating kolkata high court building...those huge pillars...the busy lawyers...me..running with lawyer from one courtroom to another...the intrinsic architecture but the same sense of belonging at the same time...am going to miss it for sure...
the blatant point is just that i got attached to this place.sitting alone n working on my desk today, there is this constant feeling that sir might just ask for some research or ma'am might just give me some letter or something to type...
i am leaving this place for sure...but as a changed person...they have made me more confident...i li'l less "D-uh"-as ma'am would say!!And this place...well more about that on some other post...
for the moment-ASTA LAVISTA KOLKATA :P :)
as i am on verge of leaving this place i feel what everyone here meant to me. in such a short span i have learnt so much from each of them....
the intimidating kolkata high court building...those huge pillars...the busy lawyers...me..running with lawyer from one courtroom to another...the intrinsic architecture but the same sense of belonging at the same time...am going to miss it for sure...
the blatant point is just that i got attached to this place.sitting alone n working on my desk today, there is this constant feeling that sir might just ask for some research or ma'am might just give me some letter or something to type...
i am leaving this place for sure...but as a changed person...they have made me more confident...i li'l less "D-uh"-as ma'am would say!!And this place...well more about that on some other post...
for the moment-ASTA LAVISTA KOLKATA :P :)
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
momentary lapse of reason
a new year... a new beginnig...et all.
02:19 a.m. to be precise and here i sit...staring at the laptop screenw eyes bereft of any sleep..thinking of writing something, albeit the subject matter for the same appears to be forlorn. As has always been the situation with me...i have never known what i want...i ahve always known what i dont. i know i want to write...i dont know what to write.....
it is probably the only escape route to say that i ahve been over-loaded with work....and then i can go on and on justifing myself...but the point is why do i have to do it....i know if i want to i will find a way...its just that i dont have that drive...and this is really a sudden callin when out of the blue i sit and write.... sometimes giving in to sponteneity is adorable, it makes me do things i never regret.
tuch wood...but the present state of affairs seems very close to perfect...u just need to wait and the tide does shift to your favour...
stuff i have been doing:-
1) making myself a nice hot cup of beated coffee for breakfast everyday!
2) randomly planning and going out wid friends
3) being on track...don't know whether its right or wrong...but at least it is some track...
4) not over-thinking
5) enjoying law-finally
totally random,nevertheless,,,feels amazing having written something.
02:19 a.m. to be precise and here i sit...staring at the laptop screenw eyes bereft of any sleep..thinking of writing something, albeit the subject matter for the same appears to be forlorn. As has always been the situation with me...i have never known what i want...i ahve always known what i dont. i know i want to write...i dont know what to write.....
it is probably the only escape route to say that i ahve been over-loaded with work....and then i can go on and on justifing myself...but the point is why do i have to do it....i know if i want to i will find a way...its just that i dont have that drive...and this is really a sudden callin when out of the blue i sit and write.... sometimes giving in to sponteneity is adorable, it makes me do things i never regret.
tuch wood...but the present state of affairs seems very close to perfect...u just need to wait and the tide does shift to your favour...
stuff i have been doing:-
1) making myself a nice hot cup of beated coffee for breakfast everyday!
2) randomly planning and going out wid friends
3) being on track...don't know whether its right or wrong...but at least it is some track...
4) not over-thinking
5) enjoying law-finally
totally random,nevertheless,,,feels amazing having written something.
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